26-Jan-2021_constant solid rock amid swirling water
More from the “Seeds of David”: Constant
I see you have ridden the waves of change, and what a big and unexpected one it has been. But you see now that Godly change--even if it goes against everything you think is “right” and you feel you are screaming “no” inside for some of the time--can be for good. You just didn’t see how it could be. 
It’s wise to leave things totally up to Jesus, and just have your part being to say “Yes” each day to what He bids of you.
What did you say “yes” to today, that normally you would have had the inclination to turn away from and say “no”, yet you yielded? The more you say “yes” to Jesus, even against your own will and wishes, the easier it gets. It’s less of a pull and you start to almost naturally yield and flow with the new, rather than yielding nearly all the time to your own feelings and desires.
Did you say “no” today to something you wanted, because it was better that you denied that? And did you say “Yes” when you didn’t want it, but gave up your desires and embraced something uncomfortable, to stay on the fighting cutting edge of the battle, rather than be a casualty that then needed to be rescued? Good going. You’ll get better at it over time. 
Having something constant in your life, every day—something that must and can be a constant part of your life—does help you ride along with the bigger changes, and sustain less turmoil. What are the things that Jesus expects you to give your time, focus and attention to daily? Do these, and the rest will flow around you, like water down a stream, while you sit on the big solid rock of taking in the Word of God, hearing His Spirit speaking, and constantly praising Jesus for each and every thing. 
Stay on this rock, and you won’t get swept away and tossed and twirled in the swirling waters, and knocked under a time or two. So what if all around you isn’t solid ground to stand on, just stay on the rock you are given. The boat will come for you soon and take you to the palace. Stick with the rock solids, and you’ll maintain your peace of deportment through the most swirling waters and uncertainties. 
I know you wonder what is up ahead. Lots of bits of messages come floating to your mind and you wonder how this is going to all take shape, and in what form it will come. But is it facing you now, today? No. So are you to worry about tomorrow? No. Do today what is cut out for you right now. And let the other puzzle pieces take shape when it’s time.