30-Sept-2021_giving at all costs
(Jesus speaking: ) Love. How complex a matter it is, almost as intricate and complex as the natural realm that you see that is made up of tiny particles, atoms, and intricately designed organisms. There are more sides to the love element than a human can grasp. 
First you learn the love of a mother—that is, where someone is focused on your needs, and primarily those, to the hurt of most other things in her life, including her heath and desires. 
Then you learn the love of a father—the kind that tries to make a fun adventure out of the challenge and burden of living a life on earth.
Ideally, you then learn the love of family—others who care, but also require you to put something in to the relationship; a give and take type of love; a forgive and be forgiven love. This is the most challenging of all, for no more is it all receiving, but you have to hurt a bit to understand how to better love others, and there are consequences if you don’t show the right kind of love in action. This kind takes many many years to master, and some reach the end of their life on earth still hardly having scratched the surface of learning all that there is to know in this learning grade of love.
There is yet another kind of love, one that is optional, but very hard to master well, at least when trying to perform it while in this life. The love of giving all. Giving until you not only hurt, but feel you have little left. It’s the “not fair” kind of love, where it seems you give and give, and only get nothing, or next to nothing back in return. 
This I’ll call “love of angels”. This is what they indeed must have in order to help you. They give, and often see or feel nothing from you. Invisible givers they are most of the time. That is why I implore you to praise Me for the good that happens, and even for the wrong that seems to happen, for when you praise Me, it goes right to the heart of the angelic beings who do nothing but serve and give freely, receiving little to nothing in return from the one they are giving to. They give so you can live.
A human can learn this type of love, but it’s very hard, and very costly. Mostly humans run out of endurance in this type of giving. They give up and get weary. Without seeing the good that is coming, they wonder what it’s all for.
But for those who I have led to have a taste of giving or receiving “angel love”, love of a very unselfish nature, they learn a new side of Me, the Lord of Love, that others rarely understand. 
So what led Me to the cross, to give up all I had? Love of the rarest and strongest, most enduring kind. One-sided love, is another way to put it. You give not expecting anything in this lifetime for your act of giving. 
And there is yet another aspect of this type of give-all love, in the deep side of this pool of love, and that is when love given at all costs is not only not returned but rather spurned and instead hurt, much hurt is given in return. Not necessarily from the one you are giving to, but from others around, or from governing factors, from enemies, or straight from the hater of love in the realm beyond what you can see. It is a giving love that is so costly and it stirs up hatred from the nether world. 
That is what is being talked about in Psalm 109 verses 3-5, “For my love they are my adversaries.”
This is on the higher grade of lessons on love. Giving to your own hurt is one thing. Giving when others then cause you more pain because of giving your utmost, is a steep path of love to walk, and very tiring too.
But those who walk this road will understand Me and My love in new and deeper ways. And you will become more as the angels of God who give expecting nothing in return. You will become more “children of your Father in Heaven” who show compassion on the just—those who can give back in return; and show compassion on the unjust—those who it seems unfair to give to, because you gain nothing but trouble from your deed of lovingly kindness. 
But the day will come when the rewards are given out. All deeds of true love have been recorded, yes, by those angels who are sent to watch over you very carefully, so that nothing truly hurts you, but all works together for your good. When the records are looked over, then great will be the rejoicing of those who have given in love, no matter what the outcome turned out to be at the time. 
Your Father who sees in secret will more than repay. Each bit of love is like a seed; often watered with tears. But though you see not what is happening in the garden where you planted it, it grows and bears fruit. And the good fruits of your giving of love will come back to you in manifold ways.
Think of the man on the road to Jericho. The one who gave to him gained nothing in the physical from doing so. It cost rather than added to his wealth. But he that gives to the poor—that is to say to someone who has not what you have, and you share what you have with them—it is as if you have merely loaned it to God. And the longer you wait for the benefits to be returned, and the more you keep investing in God through loving others, the more will be heaped up to give back to you. 
I, Your Lord and God, King and redeemer am not a stingy returner of favours. And the more healing you need from the deeds of love that you did, the more the pleasant rewards will be lavishly poured on you upon your return and entrance into Heaven.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you not only your heart’s desires, but beyond that.