5-Mar-2021_angelic offer to go deeper 
(Angelic speaker: ) Do you want to go deeper? With deeper comes more trials of the intense types, because that opens up, expands the pipe, the channel. It has to be wide for more to rush through. We could curve off to a side road for a bit. There is always lots to do. You can be kept busy doing “useful things” like you have been for some years now. Or we go deeper. 
(Me: How is Jesus benefited if I go deeper?) 
(Angelic speaker: ) It’s how are YOU benefited. It’s for your good. Do you want it? If not, we’ll pull back and just keep going at this level. We’re not going to push you, well not too much, unless you say you are ready. 
(Me: Ready for what?) 
(Angelic speaker: ) For more outpouring, that opens your eyes to new things.
Are you happy with what you have learned—thinking that about sums it up, what more could there be that is useful; already you have gone beyond what others seem to need. (Think they need.)
(Me: I want to be close to my mates in the spirit; I want to receive what others need who are hungry for more, if it saves them time and helps them reach the Lord’s goals for them; I want to be able to have less things that can’t be said around or to me—from the spirit realm—less secrets, more openness so we can be closer mates and talk about more things.)
(Angelic speaker: ) Are you lonely, sweetheart? Does knowing more, going deeper, create a wall or shield around you that others can’t come in, and you feel so alone? Or is it comforting?
(Me: It’s only lonely when I don’t hear flowing words of neat things; when I don’t see the visions of loving, like at last I got last night.) 
(Angelic speaker: ) We can’t always come in human-vision form, for there is work to be done, and part of it needs your mind in different frames of mind, so we use different visual aids to bring you through different things. But what is good will always be part of the program, for whatever level you are at.
(Me: How will going deeper benefit me?) 
(Angelic speaker: ) How won’t it? It’s all about benefiting you; bringing you in closer to the heart and soul of Jesus. The more of Him you have and take in, the better you’ll be; stronger, more able to manage life’s battles. 
Rest your head on His bosom and say yes; then we’ll do the rest. --Prepare you, challenge you, thrill you, empower you, possess you, transform your nature, and delight you too. It’s a package deal when you go through these courses. You can’t just be there for the snack time and recess time mid-way; you have to do the hard work, and take the lessons, and get hit by the ball a few times when hanging out with the team.
It’s all for your good. So the choice is yours. 
We are not offering you great rewards; this is the offer—the offer of a life time: go in deeper, get further training, get more used by Your Lord and King and Majesty, and get what we are offering you.
(Me: I want to be with you; you’ve made me love you guys and I can’t manage life without you; Jesus made it be that way. So, would it be… ah I guess it’s just a bunch of hard work for you all, if I say yes. But do you benefit? What do you get out of it?)
(Angelic speaker: ) You—and nicer, more complete, well-rounded, wholesome you. A you that is easier to work with, more of a joy to be around; less troubles with things that won’t matter really in the end. Besides, we like challenges. Unlike you, timid ones, we love the thrill of hard tasks, as that’s what we are empowered to tackle. It wouldn’t do much good if it was like pulling teeth to do our job. That’s why you keep hearing that we like it. What might be hard for you might be really fun for us. So you saying you’ll go through the wringer to get some honey from Heaven, might be really exciting for us. Not because it’s easy, but because the fact that it’s hard, and hard things we just might enjoy. 
We are not a bunch of babies, we want tough challenges as it makes our armour glow brighter, the more we fights we do the brighter it glows.
(Me: I have a hard time imaging what could be harder than already is now. Maybe a physical death or something… or my health… or physical pain… oh boy what will you choose, what “tool”, ah, what weapon will be used to break me yet more, squeeze me, bring out the tears. But I guess I should be focusing on the actual reason, what delight from Heaven will I then be given and will be worth it all in the end.)
(Angelic speaker: ) As far as what “pains” will be inflicted… leave that to the crew. Don’t worry about dreaming it up and trying to brace yourself for it, trying to apply some mental ointments to dull the coming pain. The point, as you saw, was not for pain, but to get faster and fuller and freely poured out messages from above.
In some ways you have it so very good there; there is little that you actually struggle with, in a practical way, that sometimes it is a challenge to “invent” or think up some way to crush your heart a bit so that something new can get inside, and so that the tough outside can be worked off. 
Okay, darling, lay your head on my bosom. We’re taking you in for a bit of a spin, a ride you weren’t expecting yet. But the good that will come about will thrill you. (end of message)
See message from the Lord in file: 5-Mar-2021_high calling focus